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____it keeps bugging me
Stuck in the middle of nowhere.
I know what is the reality that awaits me..I know what are the possible solutions n outcomes. With the way it is now I dun think it'll be any different in time to come.
Mum keeps putting stress on me, throwing all those negativity of high probability at me. Not that I don't realise it yet, I got my reasons. But I doubt she'll agree to them.
She has expectations for me. Reasonable ones. Yet Im nothing more than disappointment.
It has to be me. It's my life. Like bon jovi said.
____me, so it's us too
It's not a good situation we're in. Maybe it is fine now but it's not going to be fine if this is how far we can get.
Survive, we can.. but don't want to just survive. I don't want you to just survive with me. I want to strive for the better future..for us. I don't want u to have to live to survive like I do. I'm not the best guy around but I want to let u live a better life..to take care of u without u worrying bout anything.
Saying it's fine n dun worry is not helping. The society n reality is slapping hard at me. I have to understand how dire the situation is going to be.
____actually, I need ur help
I need u to motivate me n guide me to the right path. I dun wanna take it slow..it'll soon be too late if I do so. I understand u need my attention from time to time. U want me to do things tgt with u..things that don't have to do with working or studying.. things that we just enjoy ourselves.
It would be great if we can do that all the time. But I can't. I feel guilty doing that, knowing that I should be working hard for the better living..or for now, to survive. If only I can forget about where I am.
I need u to know that u are my support. U can drive me forward, cause u are the main reason why I do things. I hope u drive me the right way.. dun let me slow down. I ought to be doing all I can now for the future. I don't think I have much time to waste.
____
I've been selfish. I always wanted to influence u for the better. I wanted u to be more independent. Well I tried. I didn't make it work.. I guess im not good at this. I couldn't help u to learn n understand.
Im lost. Somewhere.
Stuck in the middle of nowhere.
I know what is the reality that awaits me..I know what are the possible solutions n outcomes. With the way it is now I dun think it'll be any different in time to come.
Mum keeps putting stress on me, throwing all those negativity of high probability at me. Not that I don't realise it yet, I got my reasons. But I doubt she'll agree to them.
She has expectations for me. Reasonable ones. Yet Im nothing more than disappointment.
It has to be me. It's my life. Like bon jovi said.
____me, so it's us too
It's not a good situation we're in. Maybe it is fine now but it's not going to be fine if this is how far we can get.
Survive, we can.. but don't want to just survive. I don't want you to just survive with me. I want to strive for the better future..for us. I don't want u to have to live to survive like I do. I'm not the best guy around but I want to let u live a better life..to take care of u without u worrying bout anything.
Saying it's fine n dun worry is not helping. The society n reality is slapping hard at me. I have to understand how dire the situation is going to be.
____actually, I need ur help
I need u to motivate me n guide me to the right path. I dun wanna take it slow..it'll soon be too late if I do so. I understand u need my attention from time to time. U want me to do things tgt with u..things that don't have to do with working or studying.. things that we just enjoy ourselves.
It would be great if we can do that all the time. But I can't. I feel guilty doing that, knowing that I should be working hard for the better living..or for now, to survive. If only I can forget about where I am.
I need u to know that u are my support. U can drive me forward, cause u are the main reason why I do things. I hope u drive me the right way.. dun let me slow down. I ought to be doing all I can now for the future. I don't think I have much time to waste.
____
I've been selfish. I always wanted to influence u for the better. I wanted u to be more independent. Well I tried. I didn't make it work.. I guess im not good at this. I couldn't help u to learn n understand.
Im lost. Somewhere.
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