today bad mood...bad day...
juz got baq my chem & physics results today... damn.
wad should i be feeling now?
i never get as good as wad i aimed for. got 43 for chem & 47 for physics. wait... my physics is better than chem??? wtf? my chem shud be way much better than my physics ya kno... damn. too much careless mistakes + lost 20 marks cuz no time to finish. if not i'll get better score for chem lor. damn. look how pathetic i am now. juz barely passed 2 of my h2 science subjects, when i was so confident to score for one of them... looks like my level of confidence doesnt tally with the results tat im gettin now. wad de... 17 marks for structured. 13.5 for essay qn. wtf?!
think i gg ler. 2 passes like this made me realise how high is the moe standard... i think i'll need some As for my other papers, if not....
but will i be able to do tat??
maths... abit gg oso. lousy time management make me lose 20+ marks. A? can forget bout it... or my h1 econs? will i get A for it? damn. tat wont happen. for sure.
so, conclusion: cant achieve avg C (or even D) for promos. guess i'll be goin home. =(
gettin depressed now. guess im gonna score full marks if i go n redo the depression test in lohser's blog.
but i aint the only one feelin bad. some of my classmates are sufferin oso. a small number of them have a high chance of retaining. wth?
I HATE TJ.
somehow everything in TJ is never good to me. looks like now even my class oso kena...damn... "my future, my choice" wad the heck is this? juz some stupid words tat doesnt make sense when u out them together? n i keep seeing this all around TJ. again... I HATE TJ! n when is this ever true? if my future is in my hand, i wont be in this TJ tat im so uncomfortable with! im gettin crazy. i wanna kill somebody.
Listen. No one will understand how I feel now. n how I felt ever since the day moe I know im not goin to make it to NJ n have to come TJ. I wonder how will I feel when Im sent baq home? how m I suppose to tell my mom & dad?
It's all because I don't want to face the reality that I didnt make it to NJ & the reality that I have to study in TJ n stay in DHSH. Im trying to escape. U see me going back NJ n HCIBS so often, 'cause I juz want to make myself feel better. Maybe Im juz too weak, no use trying to rebel. Too weak to even survive in this kinda world.
I cant take it anymore.
Am I the one to blame?
I just want to live...
miracle doesnt wanna help me this time.
.game over.
juz got baq my chem & physics results today... damn.
wad should i be feeling now?
i never get as good as wad i aimed for. got 43 for chem & 47 for physics. wait... my physics is better than chem??? wtf? my chem shud be way much better than my physics ya kno... damn. too much careless mistakes + lost 20 marks cuz no time to finish. if not i'll get better score for chem lor. damn. look how pathetic i am now. juz barely passed 2 of my h2 science subjects, when i was so confident to score for one of them... looks like my level of confidence doesnt tally with the results tat im gettin now. wad de... 17 marks for structured. 13.5 for essay qn. wtf?!
think i gg ler. 2 passes like this made me realise how high is the moe standard... i think i'll need some As for my other papers, if not....
but will i be able to do tat??
maths... abit gg oso. lousy time management make me lose 20+ marks. A? can forget bout it... or my h1 econs? will i get A for it? damn. tat wont happen. for sure.
so, conclusion: cant achieve avg C (or even D) for promos. guess i'll be goin home. =(
gettin depressed now. guess im gonna score full marks if i go n redo the depression test in lohser's blog.
but i aint the only one feelin bad. some of my classmates are sufferin oso. a small number of them have a high chance of retaining. wth?
I HATE TJ.
somehow everything in TJ is never good to me. looks like now even my class oso kena...damn... "my future, my choice" wad the heck is this? juz some stupid words tat doesnt make sense when u out them together? n i keep seeing this all around TJ. again... I HATE TJ! n when is this ever true? if my future is in my hand, i wont be in this TJ tat im so uncomfortable with! im gettin crazy. i wanna kill somebody.
Listen. No one will understand how I feel now. n how I felt ever since the day moe I know im not goin to make it to NJ n have to come TJ. I wonder how will I feel when Im sent baq home? how m I suppose to tell my mom & dad?
It's all because I don't want to face the reality that I didnt make it to NJ & the reality that I have to study in TJ n stay in DHSH. Im trying to escape. U see me going back NJ n HCIBS so often, 'cause I juz want to make myself feel better. Maybe Im juz too weak, no use trying to rebel. Too weak to even survive in this kinda world.
I cant take it anymore.
Am I the one to blame?
I just want to live...
miracle doesnt wanna help me this time.
.game over.
LX feel the groove @ 8:49 PM
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