this is writen days ago. juz after promos.
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i have the same feeling now like 7 months ago when i know im cant make it to my desired jc. but this time is worse i think.
I GOT A FEELIN IM NOT GOIN TO MAKE IT TO NEXT YEAR.
IM GOIN HOME.
my results are too lousy to continue with the scholarship. i dun even score a single D, how m i goin to continue?
as i read thru my frens' blogs, i feel more demoralised n intimidated. they are gettin much better than wad im gettin. they achieve wad they aimed for. they have nothing much to worry bout. some are even scoring better than expected.
but wad bout me? im juz a freakin lousy shit who almost failed my maths! got 44 for maths, chance to pass is high.
BUT I AIN'T ONLY AIMING FOR A PASS! I wanted a B for maths! why the hell m i gettin 44 when i know 60 is not a problem to me? losin 20+ marks has already make A impossible for me. now i cant even get a C?!
WHY??
i cant take it. it juz took away hope from me. my only hope. i feel betrayed. betrayed by wad i always trusted. chem has disappointed me alot, now even maths....wad m i suppose to do now? wait for gp results to come n end me off? how m i suppose to be feelin now? hopeless? helpless? disappointed? angry? sad?
i cried. like i did on tat day 7 months ago.
i want to blast the music so loud tat i cant hear anythin else n i cant think bout anythin.
i want to talk to someone.
i want to stop time so tat the next second never comes.
i want to turn back time to the time before everything started.
i want to run away.
i want my life.
i want....i don't want to call home.
i don't want to let my parents know tat i can't make it.
i don't want to go school, i hate tj.i don't want to go home.
i don't want....
im saturated with depression. i hope to talk to someone but there's no one around... no frens.... n no one will have the mood to talk to me at this period of time.
all alone... hopeless, helpless...
i dunno wad to do now....
________________________________________________________________________________________________________
i have the same feeling now like 7 months ago when i know im cant make it to my desired jc. but this time is worse i think.
I GOT A FEELIN IM NOT GOIN TO MAKE IT TO NEXT YEAR.
IM GOIN HOME.
my results are too lousy to continue with the scholarship. i dun even score a single D, how m i goin to continue?
as i read thru my frens' blogs, i feel more demoralised n intimidated. they are gettin much better than wad im gettin. they achieve wad they aimed for. they have nothing much to worry bout. some are even scoring better than expected.
but wad bout me? im juz a freakin lousy shit who almost failed my maths! got 44 for maths, chance to pass is high.
BUT I AIN'T ONLY AIMING FOR A PASS! I wanted a B for maths! why the hell m i gettin 44 when i know 60 is not a problem to me? losin 20+ marks has already make A impossible for me. now i cant even get a C?!
WHY??
i cant take it. it juz took away hope from me. my only hope. i feel betrayed. betrayed by wad i always trusted. chem has disappointed me alot, now even maths....wad m i suppose to do now? wait for gp results to come n end me off? how m i suppose to be feelin now? hopeless? helpless? disappointed? angry? sad?
i cried. like i did on tat day 7 months ago.
i want to blast the music so loud tat i cant hear anythin else n i cant think bout anythin.
i want to talk to someone.
i want to stop time so tat the next second never comes.
i want to turn back time to the time before everything started.
i want to run away.
i want my life.
i want....i don't want to call home.
i don't want to let my parents know tat i can't make it.
i don't want to go school, i hate tj.i don't want to go home.
i don't want....
im saturated with depression. i hope to talk to someone but there's no one around... no frens.... n no one will have the mood to talk to me at this period of time.
all alone... hopeless, helpless...
i dunno wad to do now....
LX feel the groove @ 10:50 AM
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