*im...arrgghhh!!
life is so different here compared to life in hcibs. n this is e thing tat makes me really cant study. i really feel so.
baq there is hcibs, i got a whole bunch of frens tat i live with. i got nice roommates. i feel happy over there. tats where i think i really belong to.
dunman is not e place for me. i have nothin here besides myself. no frens. small n packed room sharin wif a damn roommate. dim lights.
dull.
meaningless.
lifeless.
i juz came baq from hcibs after stayin there over e weekends. illegally. but i had lotsa fun there. its great to see my frens baq there. we played dota, we scream like hell man. my frens there r full of life man. they're always crap stupid stuff tgt, crackin jokes. juz being funny. well tats e kinda life i want to live. i wanna get tgt with my frens there. tats my life over there.
im now a dead man. i feel like im wastin time over here, no matter wad i do. sometimes i can juz lie on my bed keep thinkin bout e pathetic situation im in now, for hours. i cant stand this kinda life. why? why m i so dead now? i always think tat if i appealed successfully baq to nj baq den, everything would be perfectly fine now. i wont be livin like this. why do they hafta to this to me? dont they know tat they're takin away my hopes & dreams when they want me to leave? im now a hopeless fella. i have nothin here.
if i were able to continue in nj, i'll be a lot better than wad i m now.
my frens r there.
my place is there.
NJWD is there.
the girl i like is there.
everything is there, but im not there. im at no where. im stuck here, all alone. i dun wanna be here. i never wanna be like this. why they hafta do this to me?! im dead bcoz of them! the damage is done. the pain is always in my heart. the pain never leaves me. since the moment tat i know i hafta leave until now, the pain is stil here. i dunno wad else can i do to make things better. i dunno how can i continue here. its only 1 more year, but it feels so long. n i dun even know whether i can survive thru this year. everything is juz so worst to me.
at the moment tat i know tat my appeal failed n i hafta leave nj n hcibs, 我有的是千千万万个不愿意. baq to the boardin sch, i locked myself in my room n cried. i was very angry n upset. angry bcoz the moe didnt approve ANY of the scholars who appealed; upset bcoz i hafta leave everything i have there. why do they hafta do this to me, to us?! why does they hafta do this when i've found found the girl tat i like & my passion for dance there?! i stil think tat they treat us very unfair. they give us no chance to appeal. if not bcoz of them, our appeal would have succeeded. victims of the education system.
*victimised*hopeless*lifeless*failure*down*helpless*dying*falling*injured*bleeding*dead*
help.
life is so different here compared to life in hcibs. n this is e thing tat makes me really cant study. i really feel so.
baq there is hcibs, i got a whole bunch of frens tat i live with. i got nice roommates. i feel happy over there. tats where i think i really belong to.
dunman is not e place for me. i have nothin here besides myself. no frens. small n packed room sharin wif a damn roommate. dim lights.
dull.
meaningless.
lifeless.
i juz came baq from hcibs after stayin there over e weekends. illegally. but i had lotsa fun there. its great to see my frens baq there. we played dota, we scream like hell man. my frens there r full of life man. they're always crap stupid stuff tgt, crackin jokes. juz being funny. well tats e kinda life i want to live. i wanna get tgt with my frens there. tats my life over there.
im now a dead man. i feel like im wastin time over here, no matter wad i do. sometimes i can juz lie on my bed keep thinkin bout e pathetic situation im in now, for hours. i cant stand this kinda life. why? why m i so dead now? i always think tat if i appealed successfully baq to nj baq den, everything would be perfectly fine now. i wont be livin like this. why do they hafta to this to me? dont they know tat they're takin away my hopes & dreams when they want me to leave? im now a hopeless fella. i have nothin here.
if i were able to continue in nj, i'll be a lot better than wad i m now.
my frens r there.
my place is there.
NJWD is there.
the girl i like is there.
everything is there, but im not there. im at no where. im stuck here, all alone. i dun wanna be here. i never wanna be like this. why they hafta do this to me?! im dead bcoz of them! the damage is done. the pain is always in my heart. the pain never leaves me. since the moment tat i know i hafta leave until now, the pain is stil here. i dunno wad else can i do to make things better. i dunno how can i continue here. its only 1 more year, but it feels so long. n i dun even know whether i can survive thru this year. everything is juz so worst to me.
at the moment tat i know tat my appeal failed n i hafta leave nj n hcibs, 我有的是千千万万个不愿意. baq to the boardin sch, i locked myself in my room n cried. i was very angry n upset. angry bcoz the moe didnt approve ANY of the scholars who appealed; upset bcoz i hafta leave everything i have there. why do they hafta do this to me, to us?! why does they hafta do this when i've found found the girl tat i like & my passion for dance there?! i stil think tat they treat us very unfair. they give us no chance to appeal. if not bcoz of them, our appeal would have succeeded. victims of the education system.
*victimised*hopeless*lifeless*failure*down*helpless*dying*falling*injured*bleeding*dead*
help.
LX feel the groove @ 9:34 PM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home