TUE 06/03
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELVIN!
Yea, his bdae is one of the few that I can rmb best…
All the best k!



Life has to be this way isn’t it?


1 year in TJ…

I guess I didn’t grow up much. Stil havin that immature kinda thoughts in ma mind.
Things that I cant understand. No, things that Im not willing to understand…they juz show that I never grow up at all. I always thought im mature since I mix around with ppl older than me, but no. because of my immature n stupid thoughts I can be a huge burden to myself n the ppl around me. I thought as long as I dun mind, everythin will be ok. That’s selfish. I was juz being inconsiderate by thinking lidat…

Im makin a choice here. No, not choice cuz I dun have a choice. Im makin a decision. A painful one. I need to let go of my heck care attitude towards study, really concentrate to do well, at least for the nex term… Some of u out there might know why…
I have to let down of dance, which im really reluctant to. I never wanna put dance aside. But for this time round, I have to.

People cannot gain anything without sacrificing something. One must present something of equal value in order to gain something. This is the principle of Equivalent trade.


Life...

This kinda things are goin to happen anyway, I’ll face this kinda situation again in the future anyway… sacrificing things u like for things that u dun but u have to….I have to understand my situation. I have to do it…
I have to grow up. I gotta stop being stubborn n stop worryin ppl around me…



Gomenasai. Its my mistake.





WED 07/03
After yesterday afternoon, my mind is full of random messy thoughts. I feel scared. I was petrified. I found myself askin ‘what should I do’ over n over again… I had a mixture of feelings…I was juz……guilty…sorry…empty…helpless…depressed…panic…I dunno…



Stress…

I guess this is wad causin them. Knowin the reality so suddenly created a huge impact on me. It caught me in a state of panic…I cant think properly… I guess I cant take it this way. Im weak……

I first priority is studies. But dance is something I wont let go... I came out with a plan: I’ll spent my free spare time concentratin, studyin for the things taught, n let myself do wadever moves I want to when im not studying. So basically u’ll only see me studying or poppin or toprockin like a mad man.
My main aim is to score for my lecture test cuz that’s wad they’ll be lookin at.
I guess I’ll stil go insane. Juz watch.



Gotta get rid of this kinda feelin…danceworks is comin n I cant let this kinda depressin shit affect my performance…its not mine alone, it’s the whole team. I cant let the team down…



I wish a have a girlfren. Actually a best fren is enuf…as long as he or she understands me… cuz at times like this, I juz feel like talking to someone n spit everythin out. Maybe I’ll feel better that way.
Will you be my listener?

LX feel the groove @ 9:04 PM